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Saturday, 2 August 2014

Who's the guest?






Who’s the guest?

Who’s the guest?
Summer storms 
Blowing dandelion seeds and
Chasing ribbon wrapped
chocolate clouds across the
Dark horizon.

Who’s the guest?
Lipstick, dipstick,
Bananas and gold croutons.
A perfect sand dollar
And long,
Long brown legs.

Who’s the guest?
A dish of caviar?
A warm baguette?
A new moon or
The circle around a
Fat summer moon?

Who’s the guest?
Ding-dong, ding-dong
What would you like
Some aquamarine silk
or maybe a song?
Music notes plucked
From her ear for
You.

Hush, Mummy … Hush
Don’t worry about the guest;
Her sense of not belonging
Furrows across her face
A taste of fear
Fills the air
As she wrings her hands
Tears welling at the tip of
Her bottom eyelids.

Who was with her
When that happened?
The chirpy cuckoo clock?
The lady who doesn’t know her name
Or was it you?

Did you see her cry
As her heart broke?
As her confidence crumbled?
Did your heart break too?
Did you care or just shrug and
Say “Meh, she won’t remember this
Tomorrow?”
Were you the guest?

I sit and rub her
Wringing hands
Caressing them, left first
Then right then left again.
She sighs, confused yet
Aware some pressure is gone;
I am the guest right now
And it is Love
I bring.

No questions nor surprises;
No things that I like,
Nor images of my world.
It is
Love
I bring
In its entire 
Largess.

I am the guest today.
A daughter willing to pass
Unrecognized by
Her own mother.
Calming and loving as I
Sooth her wringing hands,
With a lotion of lemon-grass,
Over and over and over.
Soothing her soul
With a complete portion of Love.
Over and over and over.
Over and
over 
again.



Saturday, 19 July 2014

Let love







Let love

(For us)
     By Cath Rathbone

Focus not
On what she’s lost
But love
What she has left.

Look not
At how her clothes
Are stained
But that she still can eat.

Step down
And look her in the eye
Connect with
What’s inside;

Less judging
Of what used to be
Will open
Up your heart.

Love’s patient, kind and healing,
Love softens and outlives;
Lean into Love, release your fear
Let Love acceptance be.

Accept her
Light is going out,
Accept she’s
Going back;

Accept that
She is different now
And ne’er
The same shall be.

Relax and
Put your stuff away;
Your rules,
Your phone, your life.

Sit quiet
And let her set the pace
Enjoy her
For her while.

Love’s patient, kind and healing,
Love softens and outlives;
Lean into Love, release your fear
Let Love acceptance be.

Love her
Who precious gift gave you,
The life
Which you now have;

Love her
Who loved you hour by hour,
None which
You can recall.

Love her
with all your heart and strength
Love for
The both of you;

Love her
With everything you have
She's waiting
In that place.

Lean into Love, release your fear
Lean into Love right now.
Lean in Love and cherish her
Let Love acceptance be.








Sunday, 13 July 2014

You're Still Leaving


You're Still Leaving



I wasn’t ready as you began to leave, Mum,
When those awful bony fingers
Began plucking out your abilities,
Your memories, and your character
Taking them one by one by one.

As if to taunt me, they’d replace one
For a minute, or two, or ten…
But then the pickers would pluck them back
Again, without a care; and
Take them one by one by one.

I prayed I could cope with it daily;
Accepting the snatchers would snatch
Again, reaching into your sacred bank
Of treasured moments, and
Take them, one by one by one.

I read and searched like Dad had shown me.
Learning everything I could, so I might be
Prepared, Mum.  Prepared for what? For my
Inability to stop the thief stealing you?
As it took you one by one by one.

The crazy thing is you’re still leaving, Mum.
The grifter telling its sneaky story, selling its ugly lie
That you’re still here but the thief waits by your side to
Plunder, pillage, rob.  You regress as they grow bold,
Taking you, one by one by one.

Where do you go? To Heaven, I bet, Mum
Like a slow version of Star Trek’s
Beaming station – and at the other end, Dad
And Grampie and Mizzy are collecting them
As they arrive, one by one by one

I’m accepting and without expectation today,
After 11 months apart, your face though older’ll
Be the same – the you I knew, will not.
Alzheimer’s, that thief, has done its job
Taking you one by one by one.

I’ll hold your hands, I’ll rub your feet,
And hug you make you laugh – then hold
Your face in both my hands, til eyes
Locked tight, I reach the well of untouchable
Love, Mum, and refill it, one by one by one.

For in the end it’s all that’s left, all that
Matters and all that mattered.  Love. 
You can’t make it, you can’t fake it and
The swindler Alzheimer’s cannot shake it.
I’ll love you for us both, Mum. One by one by one.

By Cath Rathbone

Wednesday, 7 May 2014

The Boy Who...


The Boy Who Cried

The boy who cried
Came into the room
Sat down
Hunched over
And did
What he did
Best.
He cried.

His mother said “Stop.”
His father said “Stop.”
His teacher said “Stop.”
But the boy just
Cried and cried

The boy who cried
Came into my room
Sat down
Hunched over
And did
What he did
Best.
He cried.

I put my arm around his shoulder,
Some tissues in his hand
Then whispered “God loves you
And so do I.”

The boy who cried
Sniffled and
Looked up
“He does?”
I nodded.
“You do?”
I nodded.
And today he
Loves because
He’s loved.


Thursday, 3 April 2014

The Runaway Sultan


The Runaway Sultan

Chapter One
A Portent

“He’s here!” a voice cried out, echoing down the dark, silent corridors of Qataban Palace.
            Jolted awake from a dead sleep, fifteen year-old BB, Prince Bashir Baha al Din, hurled himself out of his bed.
            “It’s a boy.  It’s a boy!  I’m saved!” he crowed as he ran barefooted, clad only in his pajama bottoms .  “It’s a boy. So after Ahmed it’s the boy, NOT ME.” His laughter followed him, echoing like the messenger’s voice all the way to his brother’s wing in opposite end of the Palace.
            Throwing open the enormous carved door, BB leapt onto his brother’s sleeping form, waking him instantly.  “Ahmed! Did you hear?  Your son is here!”
             “Bonbon?  What the blazes…?  Get off me, get off!” Ahmed flung BB off his back, sat up and rubbed his eyes. “What are you talking about?”
BB bounced up, too excited to feel hurt from the tumble or being called his childhood nickname. “I heard them calling!  You have a boy! A son, a son – it’s just been announced. I have to tell Father!”
“Don’t be a ass,” he growled, “There’s no baby boy, Bashir, I'm going to kill you for this prank …”
“No you won’t.  There is so a boy!”
The pattering of more feet interrupted the night silence.
 “Prince Bashir!” two servants burst in, coming to a dead halt and folding into a deep bow. “Oh, forgive us, Your Highness,” they bowed again to Ahmed, “Permission to speak to Prince Bashir, if it pleases you sir.”
“It does NOT please me. Get out. Get out!  I don’t who care who speaks to whom, get the hell out!”

Without a second thought, they all ran, lest Ahmed begin hurling things at them.
“Hurry, Your Majesty, he’s here,” the servant pointed to one of the back staircases.
“This way is faster!” BB pointed.
“No, Highness.  These back stairs will get you to the Royal Stables much faster.”
BB stopped dead.  Three whole seconds ticked by in his head before he turned to face the men.  “The Royal Stables? But …”
“Yes, Isabella is fretting for you.”
“Isabella?”
“Yes,” bowed the servant again, “Isabella has produced her foal.  It’s male.”
“Oh no.  Oh NO.  So it’s not Ahmed’s baby? It’s Isabella’s foal… what about the Royal baby?”
The servants hung their heads, neither looked up at the Prince.  Neither made eye contact.  That could only mean one thing: one terrible thing.  “Ahmed did not have a boy then?”
They shook their heads, still not looking up.
“A girl?”
They nodded in unison.
“Argh!  Nooo.  No, no no.” BB beat his temples and stamped his feet.  “Jumping jiggery-pokery.  Argh.  Never mind; I still won’t be Sultan.  Come on – I need to celebrate with my lovely Isabella.  What are you waiting for?”

Hold on, I’m coming. I’m coming. BB’s forearms and neck prickled as he skidded into the vast stable. The entrance was ablaze with flickering torchlight, excited whispers and the sweet smell of fresh straw. Men parted and quieted as he hurtled toward the ample birthing section.
I’m coming. He ran smack into someone. “S- sorry…” Winded, BB doubled over, clutching his knees.
“No, it is I you who begs your pardon, Prince BB,” Agad bowed and stepped aside, revealing Isabella.
There she stood, silver-white and shining in the late-night moonlight.
BB gaped.
She nickered the moment she spotted him, pushing the musky smell of her recent foaling toward him, warm and milky.
“Hi … I’m here.” He looked straight at her.
She bobbed her head.
Ignoring the bloodied straw and afterbirth, he inched forward, wrapped his arms around her sweaty neck and buried his face in her matted mane.
“You did it, you wonderful, beautiful, clever girl,” BB rubbed her arched neck and then blew into her nostrils.  Snorting and blowing in response, Isabella nickered, turning her head to one side.
BB stepped back, “Ah, you have something to show me?” he teased.
Huddled in the cool safety of her shadow, still damp but upright on wobbly legs, was Isabella’s foal.  She licked its head and nudged it forward so BB could have a better look.
“Isabella,” he whispered falling to his knees. “He’s beautiful … perfect and beautiful.  Come here little one, yes, that’s it.  I’m not going to hurt you,” BB placed a hand on the newborn’s damp back.  “Eleven months we’ve been waiting for you, did you know that, little chap?”
Without a sounds, someone handed BB a clean towel and he began the slow and gentle process of cleaning off the sticky amniotic fluid.  “You’re so handsome little one and by the time the sun comes up, you’ll be ready to run around outside, did you know that?” A gentle ripple of laughter warmed his heart.  Everyone loved an easy birth.
He was almost finished rubbing the foal’s face, when he gasped, “Double faint-star?  Isabella, did you make a double faint-star?” he turned to look at his mare and then returned to her foal’s forehead.
Isabella whinnied and curled back her lips, tossing her neck, flailing her mane, delighted.
“Come, Agad,” BB called to the head groom, “Tell me about these markings.”
Crouching low, Agad put his hands together and faced BB. “Begging your pardon, Prince BB, but you must not inspect the horse before putting its horse-cloth on.”
“Horse-cloth? Agad, I don’t care about the horse-cloth, or the value of the foal.  Horse-cloths are for people who are buying horses.  This one’s not for sale and never will be.” BB waved a dismissive hand, “I want you to tell me about these,” he pointed to the two pinprick markings on the foal’s forehead.
“Very well then.  Let us take a closer look. Inspection torch,” he called out, making the foal jump.
“Shh.” BB stroked the skittish baby, “Be gentle, Agad if you please.”
“Ah, he doesn’t mind,” Agad grinned.
“But I mind.  I don’t want him startled.  Not now. Not ever.  Please treat him with kindness and consideration.”
Agad dropped his head, “Of course, Prince BB.  I’m foolishly excited and lost my head.”
BB patted the man’s arm, “I know.  Now tell me what you see.”
“Hmm.” The head-groom’s voice seemed stuck in his throat as he illuminated the shivering body nostril to rump.
“What do you mean, ‘Hmm’?  Spit it out, man.”
“Hmm.  Yes definitely twin faint-stars, which would usually be good but …” Agad’s voice trailed off.
“But, what? Agad?”
Every movement froze.  Every sound stilled.  Even Isabella seemed to be holding her huge breath.
“Oh, Prince BB, this is difficult.  So difficult.  There is more, but I do not wish to be the bearer of this portent.  It is too heavy even for me to say aloud.” Agad bowed his head.
“Nonsense.” BB returned to rubbing the damp foal pulling him closer.  “Everything looks perfect.  I know a double faint-star is a sign of good things to come.  What the blazes do you see that I don’t?” BB motioned for the Royal Veterinarian to come close.  “Come, come.  You look too and don’t dare tell me he doesn’t look perfect.”
The two men muttered, poked, lifted, splayed and further examined the colt until BB could contain himself no further. “That’s enough!  Tell me what you’ve found.  Whatever it is, I’m going to keep the foal, I tell you.”
“Well, it’s not that easy,” the veterinarian pushed back his white hair.  Agad mirrored his expression and shook his head.
“It’s this right here,” the older man pointed to the foal’s armpit.
“What?  Smelly armpits already?” BB chortled a ripple of laughter echoed behind him. “Really Isabella, I’m shocked,” BB looked up at her feigning a stern look.  She tossed her head and continued to stare down at them.
“Your Highness, Prince Bashir …” Agad began.  BB sobered up, knowing that the head groom meant business when he addressed him by his full name. “This marking in the armpit, this feather-marking is called a Kukhapit.  It is a powerful portent.”
The silence that followed was brittle.
Everyone seemed to lean in.
The foal edged closer to its dam.
“Portent?” BB’s voice cracked.
“Yes.  It means all relatives of owner will die before him.”



Saturday, 15 March 2014

Shirley





Shirley Brady Johnson
  by Cath Rathbone

Shirley, you’re divine;
Happy,
Interesting,
Real, sublime.  Your
Love shows
Every day in
Your own special way.

Blessed are you! You
Radiate that joy
All over – every
Day, (and nights too.)
You truly are a beacon.

Just when
Others crave
Hope, in you come;
Never failing to
Share your light
Openly with those in
Need.

Wednesday, 5 March 2014

Remembering seven


REMEMBERING SEVEN




Pop.
Pop. Pop. Pop.
My eyes are wide open.  It’s dark.  It must be the middle of the night.  Maybe three or four am.  Yikes.
I look about the window and see the street is empty.  And dark.  No street lights in Carrasco in those days.  There used to be one lonely one about two blocks away, where the beautiful, one-and-only Bowling Alley had been; but the street lamp disappeared when they cleared away all the rubble of the Bowling Alley after someone bombed it.
Pop.
What’s that noise? Mummy? I’m whispering in my head, I’m scared.  But no Mummy comes.
I can’t go back to sleep.  I’m counting blue sheep jumping over fences.  But it’s not working.  They’re not happy.  They can also hear the pop, pop, pop.  They’re shivering and running away.  Wait!  Come back, please, come back.
Maybe I should go to the bathroom?  Or maybe not.  The snake might be under the bed.  For sure the snake’s under the bed, because that’s where it lives at night.  Sometimes with the crocodile.  I’ve seen the crocodile creep up the stairs dragging its long, long tail eight steps behind it.
Mummyyyy? Help me; I’m frightened of the popping sounds.
Niggy? I call my little dog in my head, but Niggy’s a bit deaf and quite old – he’s my age, but Mummy says in dog years, that’s about 49.  Yikes, that’s really, really old. Although he still fights dogs, bigger dogs, all the time.
I wish I had some chocolate.  Chocolate always makes me feel better.  Chocolate makes me smile.  Chocolate. Two chocolates, three choc…

“Noony? My Daddy’s shaking me awake.  It’s morning.  The sun is getting ready to break in through the curtains. “Were you dreaming? You were doing something quite funny, making a popping sound like this,” and Daddy put his finger in his mouth and snapped it out against the tight left side of his lips. Pop. “Like that, Noony.”
“Oh.” I’m turning scarlet, I know it, I can feel the red burning in my face and neck. “Pop?”
Daddy nods.
"Did you also hear me in the night?" I whisper into the blankets I've pulled up to my nose.
"Yes, I think I did.  Come on, it's time for school."
I know it's safe to get up now, because the big black shoes have already chased away the snake and the crocodile too.
I hop out, put my finger in my mouth.  Snap it out.  Pop.
It worked.  All day yesterday I'd practiced and it hand't worked.  
Pop.
Pop. 
I was good at this now.